Well I feel like I have totally abandoned my blog here. Certainly not intentionally. Just crazy busy life I have. Still working 2 jobs, and school full time online. I swear that online feels like 3 times the amount of work that you would do for traditional classes. Brutal to say the least! Couple new update like things....
I am down a total of 55 lbs since June. I seem to be stuck at that number, but I have not really done anything to move that along. I have been overweight and trying to lose these pounds for close to 10 years now. I would always lose like 5 and then gain it back...never really making any headway. I guess stress, this time, has worked for me. Usually I am an emotional stuff my face kind of girl, but not this time. I get so busy I have to remind myself to eat. But I have this last 20 pounds to go and I will reach a goal I set for myself in 1999. I figure if I can lose 55...then 20 should be fine...right? lol
I am seeing someone. A really amazing guy named Ryhan. I am crazy for him, but still trying to take things slow and build up the trust that seems to have been shattered in my brain. It is difficult for me to hold back though with him. He is really something special, and I am glad he has come into my life. He is great with the boys. Little things like showing Ethan how to make his own pizza, and showing Ethan how to cook other things, without me ever asking him too, melts my heart. Like him going in when Lucas is crying and rocking him back to sleep for me because I am trying to get Ethan in bed. Little things....that are HUGE. So we shall certainly see, but I am very hopeful and feel very calm about it. We really bring out the best in each other....always a plus.
I am really REALLY excited that Scrapbook Trends picked up a layout of mine for thier Feb 09 issue. I am particularly excited because it is one of my favorite layouts that I have ever made. It just feels really cool to have it out there....and he looks so stinkin' cute if I do say so myself!!
Hmmm Let me see what else. OH! I have a new best friend lol. His name is Ben and I swear its like the best thing ever. We started off trying to date, but that was a big NO for both of us, but it turned into this fun and great friendship. He hates it but I always tell him he is about as gay as they come without actually liking the whole penis thing. But its true. He is great to talk to, dresses better than anyone I know, gives great advice, takes care of me when I am sick. All around I am SO lucky for him! I had a kidney infection last week and he brought me dinner and a movie and helped me with the kiddos.
He is being quite the pimp of all pimps lately. I told him to go on match.com (because I have always had really good luck...Hello Ryhan!) and he was bitching and moaning how no one responds and blah blah blah. i told him to suck it up ya big BABY! and what do you know...it started raining whowho (ok that was gross sorry...) He had 2 dates in one day. FREAK! I told him I was totally jealous cause if he gets a girlfriend she probably won't be cool with his best friend being a girl.
It is rare to find a chick that is totally OK with it. Usually they say they are in the begining, but it morphs into this jealousy thing that is completely ridiculous. So while I hope he finds someone, I still am completely selfish and a brat when it comes to the thought of losing my bud. I just know it is coming on some level. I am really lucky that Ryhan isn't the jealous type. I have always been better friends with guys than with girls.
I just always clicked easily with the men of the species. And I have always had issues with their girlfriends not liking me or flat out asking them to not speak to me. Oh yes...I did get that call some years ago..."sorry I can't talk to you anymore. It doesnt matter that i am in WA and you are in FL....but she doesn't like that you call me twice a year to say hi...and it doesn't matter that we have been friends since 7th grade...I am pussy whiped and can't tell the biznitch no" Ok so maybe not a direct quote, but that was what I heard. Then of course they broke up and now we talk again. I am nice like that! lol.